Day after asthma suckiness
Apr. 3rd, 2014 11:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyriasI had trouble breathing all yesterday because of stupid asthma. It might be making a recurrence today. Again. Sucky.
Slept at near 2am. Woke at 10am.
Warning: Four of Cups
Advice: Reverse Nine of Cups
Health: The Hanged Man
Going out: Six of Wands
General relationship: Reversed The Hermit
Solution to relationship: The Sun
Four of Cups: Self-absorption, refusal to accept help and move on. Understand your limitations and mental blocks and how you may be continuing patterns of past behaviour.
Reverse Nine of Cups: Nine of cups indicates fulfillment, satisfaction, and wishes granted. Reversed it can mean trying to self-gratify at the expense of others, missing true inner fulfillment because of greed, over indulgence, and mistakes, or an inadequate regard of how your behaviour is impacting others.
Hanged Man: Stuck. Restricted. Suspended. In wait.
Reversed Hermit: Isolation. Loneliness. Withdrawal. Either not taking enough time for personal reflection, or too much navel-gazing.
Sun: Fun. Warmth. Success. Vitality.
I can't figure out if the Sun is telling me that I should be more sunny and outgoing -- yeah, probably. Unlikely it's telling me that someone is going to breeze into my life and pull me kicking and screaming back into the land of the living.
I've been super depressed. The sort of depression where having someone persuade me life is worth living makes me want to cut myself just to spite the world.
C: Reversed Two of Wands-- fear of the unknown, lack of planning. Need to reassess goals, find motivation, and keep moving forward.
How to help: Reversed Two of Swords -- Overwhelmed by trying to please everyone, stuck between a rock and a hard place, hard decisions and mental confusion over how to deal with it.
C's future: Reversed Five of Pentacles -- a panacea?
My role in C's life - Reversed Eight of Cups. Possible confusion about best option? Needing to know when to walk away when something isn't working? Hopeless, aimless drifting?
Staying in the US: Reversed Knight of Cups -- Moodiness? Jealousy? Allowing emotions to cloud the view?
Staying in Silk House: Reversed Queen of Swords -- possibly cold-hearted, bitter, bitchy, and mean. Or may be thinking more with emotions than sense. Need to use logic and parse the clues better.
Going to Taiwan: Reversed Nine of Swords -- Worry, anxiety, overwhelming the self with doubts and stress. Need to step back and objectively view the situation, stay calm, and realize that it's not that bad after all.
What should I be doing differently?
Reversed Ace of Cups -- Look after my emotional health. Get in touch with it and either let it loose or stop the not-catharsis venting.
Justice.
Star. Renewed hope and faith and being blessed by the universe.
Reversed Seven of Wands. Gah. All right. Just let it go. It's a losing battle with no-win situation.
King of Swords. Be logical. Be detached. Move forward and be just.
All right. Fine. I'm getting the picture.
Keep calm. Carry on. Eyes on the goal. Don't look down. Be fair and just and don't do things based on hysterical over-emotionality. Okay.
*sigh*
Slept at near 2am. Woke at 10am.
Warning: Four of Cups
Advice: Reverse Nine of Cups
Health: The Hanged Man
Going out: Six of Wands
General relationship: Reversed The Hermit
Solution to relationship: The Sun
Four of Cups: Self-absorption, refusal to accept help and move on. Understand your limitations and mental blocks and how you may be continuing patterns of past behaviour.
Reverse Nine of Cups: Nine of cups indicates fulfillment, satisfaction, and wishes granted. Reversed it can mean trying to self-gratify at the expense of others, missing true inner fulfillment because of greed, over indulgence, and mistakes, or an inadequate regard of how your behaviour is impacting others.
Hanged Man: Stuck. Restricted. Suspended. In wait.
Reversed Hermit: Isolation. Loneliness. Withdrawal. Either not taking enough time for personal reflection, or too much navel-gazing.
Sun: Fun. Warmth. Success. Vitality.
I can't figure out if the Sun is telling me that I should be more sunny and outgoing -- yeah, probably. Unlikely it's telling me that someone is going to breeze into my life and pull me kicking and screaming back into the land of the living.
I've been super depressed. The sort of depression where having someone persuade me life is worth living makes me want to cut myself just to spite the world.
C: Reversed Two of Wands-- fear of the unknown, lack of planning. Need to reassess goals, find motivation, and keep moving forward.
How to help: Reversed Two of Swords -- Overwhelmed by trying to please everyone, stuck between a rock and a hard place, hard decisions and mental confusion over how to deal with it.
C's future: Reversed Five of Pentacles -- a panacea?
My role in C's life - Reversed Eight of Cups. Possible confusion about best option? Needing to know when to walk away when something isn't working? Hopeless, aimless drifting?
Staying in the US: Reversed Knight of Cups -- Moodiness? Jealousy? Allowing emotions to cloud the view?
Staying in Silk House: Reversed Queen of Swords -- possibly cold-hearted, bitter, bitchy, and mean. Or may be thinking more with emotions than sense. Need to use logic and parse the clues better.
Going to Taiwan: Reversed Nine of Swords -- Worry, anxiety, overwhelming the self with doubts and stress. Need to step back and objectively view the situation, stay calm, and realize that it's not that bad after all.
What should I be doing differently?
Reversed Ace of Cups -- Look after my emotional health. Get in touch with it and either let it loose or stop the not-catharsis venting.
Justice.
Star. Renewed hope and faith and being blessed by the universe.
Reversed Seven of Wands. Gah. All right. Just let it go. It's a losing battle with no-win situation.
King of Swords. Be logical. Be detached. Move forward and be just.
All right. Fine. I'm getting the picture.
Keep calm. Carry on. Eyes on the goal. Don't look down. Be fair and just and don't do things based on hysterical over-emotionality. Okay.
*sigh*
